Takkun-hime

Lately I have been really brought down by life recently. I've been blindingly ignoring it, being optimistic, and coping with it.. though I haven't confronted it because I'm pretty sure it will only cause problems. I hate how much I care for people and get attached. I feel confined by anothers manipulative feelings and therefore need to do everything in 'secret'  as far is whenever I get feelings for someone else. In such a case the person I am getting attached to I am unsure of their intentions compared to mine, so I have become somewhat reserved with my feelings.. or at least in expressing them. I'm afraid to show them because I think it wo

This nervousness is crippling and the anxiety presser son me harder and harder. This block is the only way to show the emotion that I cannot express in any sort of existence. These eyes that see past the surface are stabbing into my skull what I do not wish to know and cannot perceive as fact, but only notion that is smothered in nervous resentment. Withered hands grasping at this smoke and hitting mirrors placed by my own defences shroud my judgement. What is real and what is this paranoid cyst constricting rationality I cannot say, but I am to restricted by my doubts to dare ask truth and lies from this dark well. Is what lies from within y

To you who will never read these words, may you one day know my love for you. With the creativity that gushes from me like blood in a fatal wound that you will never read. I feel as though I am screaming till I am mute and you don't even see me. Yes I am upset and yes I am here willingly but will you ever see the world i wish to give and anything I can offer? I'd give up my dreams right now for just one more chance to even be considered yours! I will never insult you even if you bury me in the dirt! These feelings grow every day and twist me. They flick my switches and my heart burns with these ancient forms to speak. If you only could feel